I’ve found myself sugar coating everything. 

I looked back at this blog that I wrote, nearly a year and a half ago, and thought that it wasn’t living up to my expectations.  I was choosing safe words strategically to put on a happy side. A side that wanted to speak my feelings, but also keep it light.  In turn, it wasn’t helping anyone..

The purpose of my blogging is to not only relate to you, but to help inspire you to maybe take a different approach on life.  To realize that, yes, shitty situations will come and go, but the point isn’t to just get through them, the point is to learn and grow from these times– a life lesson.  Your lesson to help you become a better version of you.  And yes, that does include a happy you.  Because you will find it.  I promise.

Read on..

I’m sure you’ve heard the saying;

“Every cloud has a silver lining.”

“What good thing could possibly come form this?” ,you’ve thought to yourself.

“If everything happens for a reason, then I must be scorned. No one deserves to be going through this right now.”

If this is you, then I’m pretty positive that you’ve heard this one–

“Just stick through it; you’ll see someday that it was all supposed to happen.”

So, back to the silver lining.

If you’re not familiar with this, here is the meaning– even the worst events or situations have some positive aspect.

I have to say that I am possibly the {biggest!} believer in everything happens for a reason.  I’ve personally gone through many. many, many life happenings that really felt like a knife in my belly at the time, but now feels like the biggest miracle that could have ever happened to me.  Like, for reals.

The thing to remember is that it’s the way we react to the situation at hand.

Ok, now I really know what you’re thinking..

“How can you say that? You have no idea what I’m going through!”

And you’re right. I don’t.  Do you know why?

Because you’re a much stronger person than me. You wouldn’t have been given this if you couldn’t handle it.  It absolutely doesn’t seem like it right now; I do know that.

Truth be told, it may not feel like it for a long time.

Please remember one thing..

This is supposed to happen.  Right here.  Right now.  And it will continue to happen, maybe in different forms, but still very similar.  Until.. you learn from it and change the story.

Don’t stop reading.. I have more to share.  You’ll want to hear it.

Make no mistake– the tremendous struggles we face, do set us up for our future and mold us into the person we are intended to be.

I have personally gone through a struggle.  Many struggles… I’ll share them all soon, but for now, here’s one.

One that sticks out to me is the time that I developed a bad rash all over my face- dermatitis.  I’ve said it before and I’ll continue to talk about how devastating it was to my ego.  I felt like everyone was staring at me, in particular to my rash.  Sound familiar?  It was as if it was defining me and who I was.  At the time, my day time gig was face to face conversations with clients and all I could think about was that they were staring at my rash and wondering what was wrong with my skin.

I learned that although I thought I was healthy, I really, really wasn’t.  The salads that I often ate would never outweigh the pizza, brownies and beer that I enjoyed on a weekly basis.  Looking back, I knew that it wasn’t great for me.  I knew that I had a great chance of becoming an alcoholic.  But I continued to do it because it helped me feel good in the moment.  Like euphoric and even orgasmic.  You know what I’m talking about… the sigh of relief that you get when you take a sip of wine after what seems like the longest day from hell.  Or the first bite of pizza you eat when you’ve been thinking about what felt like the longest wait in line.

In turn, it not only made me feel sick often, tired and irritable, it also showed up on my skin.  This caused me to really take a look at my lifestyle and face the hard truth that something needed to change.

I cleaned up my diet– big time.  So much so, that it caused me to not feel so excited to head to my grandmas for lunch or my mother-in-laws for dinner, because I knew that I couldn’t eat most of the food served.  Mostly food that I craved and grew up on.  Food that comforted me.  Food that I loved.

I cut out the obvious gluten, dairy, sugar and alcohol.  I felt like a fish out of water.  No one around me could relate to what I was going through.  It may seem extreme, but I really felt alone.  Not only did I have what I thought was the ugliest skin ever, I couldn’t enjoy things that made me feel great anymore.

At the time, it felt as though I would be living the {what seemed like a nightmare} for the rest of my life. I couldn’t imagine my future outside of the darkness.

Then, one day, I woke up and I figured it out.

This was intended to “happen to me”.

I wasn’t taking care of my body and it was trying to talk to me, to tell me that something was wrong.  For most of my life, I ignored the feeling sick, fatigue and irritated feelings.  I dismissed them as my life.  This was it for me.  This is how I would feel forever.   The universe knew that I needed a wake up call.  And it was a wake up call to help me see that I wasn’t living my best life.  I wasn’t going to have a fulfilled life if I continued on the path I was walking.

That’s when the universe stepped in with a physical slap to the face and said,

“Wake up, Audra!  You’re meant to live an inspiring life.  You weren’t put on this beautiful Earth, to live a precious life, full of sickness and sleepy days.  You’re meant to do big things!  This is your sign.”

Never in a million years would I have thought {during the time of my struggle} that this would lead me to my strength!  Not only was I able to change my unhealthy lifestyle around, but I was able to transition to a new meaning.  A more fulfilling meaning, which has led me to this moment.  Sharing my life lessons so that it will help inspire you to learn from yours.

Now, you may be thinking that you can’t think of a similar situation that would help you to change paths to a new and more meaningful life.  I can guarantee, that you’ve been faced with something trying.  Think back, think hard of a time or maybe five, that you really feel were a big struggle to you.  If you have more than one, can you see a trend?  Do they all share something in common?

Maybe you’ve continued to start to lose weight and for some reason, always revert back to the same habits that hold you back from reaching your goal.

Or maybe you’ve been in one bad relationship after another.

This is all your doing, you know.  (sorry, not sorry)

The reason you’re here, reading this now, is because of you and the decisions you’ve made during these shit times.  You haven’t decided to show up for what Gabby Bernstein calls, your Universal Assignment.  The life lesson.

There is still time to make the shift that needs to be made to make sure that you no longer have to face this one.  It may not be easy at first.  It will more than likely be uncomfortable.  Sometimes, painful.

What will set you free is what you envision during the lesson.  For me and my rash, I would picture my skin so clear and beautiful.  I could see myself smiling, laughing and enjoying life.  I was manifesting an amazing life, while doing something very unintentionally powerful.  Positive vibes.   I wasn’t dwelling on the negative side of my ugly rash.  My ability to over power that and see my future in a positive light is what made it happen.

(this is the picture on my image board)

I took pictures from my past, when I did have clear skin and would look at them everyday.  This was the major shift that allowed me to stay on the path that would have been so dang easy to get off of.  I could’ve chosen to take medications and continue to eat what I wanted, whenever I wanted.

I can tell you what would’ve happened if I chose the latter.

I wouldn’t be where I am today, happy and helping inspire you to live your best life.  Most definitely, life would have given me a bigger slap in the face of possibly a very bad diagnosis of my health and maybe even worse..

Hopefully this has inspired you to make the change.  Look back at your life lessons.

What will your silver lining be?

Happiness, Audra